*Currently looking for a literary agent*

This tender memoir is divided into two parts. Part one begins with the attempted suicide of my father. Then I explore the quirkiness of my childhood on the road, the struggle of getting out of the grip of Christian legalism in the South, my struggle with suicide attempts and bi polar mania, my marriage at 19 to a man who struggles to love me, and my joyous entrance into motherhood.

In part 2, I document my year long mental breakdown. I document my decent into hopelessness, suicidal obsessions, being locked up in psych wards, and my struggle to get out of them alive.

This memoir is composed of essays and thread together with a ribbon of hope, even in the darkest of moments.